Pain And Growth

one addition to my book of thoughts is at a time when i had an infection on my rear end, laugh as you may but i didn't get sleep for 4 days and every time i sat down it gave me agonising pain. it was at that point that i wanted to talk about the aspect of human pain.
pain is without a doubt the most cruel and unforgiving feeling for the human race and like everything it can be divided in three,
emotional pain
physical pain
spiritual pain
my idea in this part of my rantings is to try establish a connection between the three and show how if one is unbalanced then it can theoretically effect all three.
physical pain is without a doubt the most common i don't think anyone in their right mind would argue that. muscle pains,broken bones,ripping tendons/arteries,pulling a muscle,headaches, the list goes on and on. i think its safe to say that no matter how wealthy,healthy or careful you are about being hurt you are guaranteed to feel a lot of physical pain in your life, as negative as this may sound it brings me to the point of sensory disabilities, it has recently occurred to me that there is disability for all our senses except one.
feeling.
this intrigues as i wonder what it would be like to feel nothing, you would not have any sense of walking,running,writing,typing,establishing what is tangible or not and the possibilities of how this can effect one being can go on and on, effectively the person would be living in a state or purgatory, not being able to identify reality from illusion, right from wrong, pain from pleasure. one would presume that if this case were to present itself one day in a being the person would die of... well confusion really?
personally i see the reason behind this lack of disability in our touching senses as a spiritual factor because whatever god we may believe in, that god does not see it benefiting us to go through life without feeling, we cannot truly enjoy the high points of our life's without remembering how much we have suffered in the past. in this particular case one would not have any sense of spirituality anyway because in order for things to appear real there must first be a greater persona in which created everything whether it be god,the force of the universe or simply the belief of any form of higher force acting upon us. in this case one would not be able identify the realm of physical pain, and therefore breaking the connection between the three.

spiritual pain.
it is often hard to identify and has that effect of "you don't realise till its too late".
spiritual pain is often related to a loss of direction of life and i tell you this from experience, so it may or may not be true for others (hey were all unique and different!) often someone in spiritual pain hopes to identify it as emotional and refuse to believe that they have a certain aspect in their life missing (being religion,simple beliefs about souls or ways of life eg Buddhism follows the way Buddha lead out his life then again that's the basis of most religions, idolising someone and trying to live out your life the way they did.) however i would like to point out that out of the three spiritual and emotional are probably the closest connected.
i would like to take one second to acknowledge the fact that if any of this relates to you then i am not saying there is something wrong with you, believe me everyone goes through these three types of pain in life and i think its safe to say you would be more sick if you didn't!

after this big paragraph of ranting i would like to ask you all,
why do we place ourselves in these situations to hurt? we subconsciously feel the need to hurt and hope to gain attention from it. i suppose it goes back to my example of the being living in a state of purgatory, if we did not place ourselves in these situations we would be worse of as a soul and as a being than if we avoided them, I'm not trying to say if your depressed then go on being depressed because that is ridiculous and i would never encourage that, I'm simply going back to my point that to enjoy the highs in life more we need to get through the hard parts.
through pain we grow in fact i believe (personally) that every action we take, every choice we make is one towards growth and towards us having a healthier soul.
when it gets down to it time heals everything, big and small, thick and thin, it heals it all some scars in our life may take longer to heal but it will come to a time where you realise "that experience isn't making me sad anymore" or "i think I'm over that experience, its not making me emotional." to add to this i would like to suggest to you all that you take time to and for yourself everyday whether it be half an hour at lunch break just sitting back and thinking about the "good Ole times" or 10-15 minutes while your lying in bed restless.

i have saved emotional for last because i personally believe it is the biggest chunk (although i shall try to keep it short... ish.) emotional pain can have a huge effect on ones life, and in a matter of minutes it can completely change your way of thinking as well as altering what you desire to get out of life, it is commonly known (not by me) that the pain of a true broken heart is worse than the majority of broken bones and/or any other physical pain. (this isn't certain for me so forgive me if that's incorrect) physical pain of a high degree is very exhausting and takes a lot out of you, it sometimes can cause a temporary depression as of the the fact that you are so limited when it occurs, you have to take time off work,school and it directly effects the social life you have be it interacting with workmates or catching up with friends. it can often make you feel emotionally detached from reality and/or society, in some cases you get attached to the feeling because you feel it for so long that you get used to it, it can make you feel detached as of the fact that you are isolated from society and/or reality. personally i try avoid using the term depression however sadly its the best word to describe the state of mind, i do this because i believe that you cannot diagnose someone for their feelings the whole idea of it is quite disgusting if you ask me, depression is often referred to as an illness and the for an illness to exist it automatically assumes that some people have it and some don't. i believe that everyone gets "depressed" to some extent in their lives whether they want to share/accept it or not. so an illness that occurs in everyone is not really an illness now is it?


( i don't see my following notes to be necessary)
so to conclude pain sucks, we all know about it and we all experience it, yet we all choose to put up with it because deep down we know that we will come out the other side a better person, and deep down we know the phrase "everything happens for a reason" and to some small extent we believe whether it be through evidence of experiences in our own lives or evidence that we see in our family or friends suffering.

all comments welcome!