The beginning of meaning

Meaning, what is it? We judge things on it, every word holds a meaning and every plant holds a meaning to serve nature, everything we see in front of us in our PC holds a meaning and a purpose, we deny and accept peoples arguments based on the meaning of their existence and logic. As humans we are wired to find purpose and meaning in life, and the first week of 2008 has revealed to me what has meaning in my life, after being the ‘sober driver’ till 1:20 am last night I can conclude that the meaning of my participation in drunkenness is to show my love and humility through my acceptance and patience for the situation at hand. I no longer feel the need to fill my life with meaningless drinking and sexual temptation, instead I feel myself ready and able to show Jesus’ love through my actions and by being an ambassador for my faith to others. This first week of 2008 could not have gone any better, I now have joint ownership over a new car (a real steal for the price paid) which is followed by my yielding of a restricted license, I am about to embark on a spiritual metaphorical road trip in which I am going to discover new places in our beautiful country and live every moment with the grace of God and love of Jesus. Henceforth this shall be my new year’s resolution, to live in and about Christ allowing him to speak in my actions and show himself through my love and acceptance. In addition to this I begin my manager training at work from when I get back from this journey, things appear to be getting off to a brilliant start and I plan to keep it this way.

My acceptance of others beliefs has opened more in the last two months than ever in my life, I have had the privilege of god softening my heart over the past couple of months to the devastation in our world, the sadness and poverty in which Jesus’ message has vanished, I feel resentful to some extent sitting here on my mothers flash laptop, roof over head, sitting on a comfy couch with slightly more weight than desired due to my over indulgence and sloth like behaviour since school has finished. I feel disgusted every time I see how Americans live their lives, catching a glimpse of their wealthy lifestyle through the show ‘my super sweet sixteen’ where a 16 y/o girl received $300,000 worth of jewellery, a brand new convertible $48,000 BMW and in conclusion more than a million dollars worth of spoilt royalty and presents. It makes me feel anguish and depression in knowing how the rich in our world continue to resent and deny the existence of poverty while they live in their multimillion dollar homes eating daily meals that cost more than what you and I would spend weekly on groceries.

It makes me sad yet enlightens my life in knowing all this, thus allowing me to begin the massive work of improving my life, asking for god to break my heart for what breaks his and teach me to love like he has loved me, this I see to by my meaning in life. I do not see fit for me to continue in doubt and low self esteem for my life, I am going to commence with my satisfying other’s expecting nothing in return and quite literally serving others with my hands and feet, I do feel content with my life, my beliefs and my meaning in life I cannot see myself living any other way than that of which I have been living in this past week, I find my tolerance for anger and bitterness increasing as my temptation equally decreases for violence, cursing and judgmental behaviour.

In conclusion (in hope of not boring you all with the length of my post’s) I can confidently say that my life is back, because I have given it up to god, not fully but in saying that its not a short easy task. I am calm, peaceful and content in all situations and I constantly see myself being with the ability to share my beliefs openly and with an open mind with other’s opinions on my beliefs. I am continuing being challenged by god and it’s a reviving feeling to know that there is always something to improve on.

Peace be with you all.

Dan / Chips