Struggles

It has been a few weeks since my last post and I thought I better update this thing.

After Get Smart I was on fire for God, and I need say that it has died a bit but it’s been good that mostly the fire has continued in its strength. It’s difficult for me to have such strong faith at times, especially when I continually argue with atheists who (for my rational and thinking mind) pose a good argument from time to time. I believe that that same thinking ability of mine is in need of a balance, its one of the reasons I walked away from God, yet at the same time it’s been pretty much the sole factor for my strengthening in faith for God. After Get Smart I found out that I had scoliosis and I felt deprived of the fact that I could have gotten healed, but with my thinking mind I reminded myself that with God there is no plan B, everything is according to his plan. However my physical condition has not improved much.

This year I haven't been exercising much and although I’m not one who actually cares what others think about my body and looks, I am one who (for the sake of the fact that my body is God's temple) wants to respect my body and be healthy and fit. I have never liked exercise much but have kept up with soccer and general walking around, its not as if I have much time this year to be active and going to a gym or anything as my schedule is choka block already and I can only hope that not having school next year will free things up a lot for me. Whilst I am aware that for every struggle God will provide us with Blessings and/or a rejoicing time, it’s hard when I'm going all out for God and I seem to not get much in return. In saying that I am preaching next week at our Christian group at school and I am prayerfully jumping into that task with all I can give it.

This weekend coming up is going to be amazing, with youth group on Friday night, the school ball on Saturday night and church Sunday morning, followed by a worship service that night also. Amongst all my struggles and stress I see evidently that God is up to something great, I talk to friends who all say that their church needs to find a bigger venue. I see more ad's on TV about Sunday services, and TV programmes which broadcast some of these. I know that whilst God has a plan for my life I have to see past that and think broader, think about the huge revivals he is doing worldwide and in my own city. I see on the news the constant troubles and misfortune of war, poverty, famine, pollution and all the rest of it so I’m now making another stand against news. Not because I want to be ignorant about it but merely because it pains me to watch sometimes, when I’m doing all I can for God where he has put me but begin to wonder "where are the people that he has called for these regions?" and more importantly why are we a generation that ignores such calls, we all want to make a change and do something great with our life’s but God it just seems we're all talk and no walk when you actually call us to do great things.

Father in heaven I thank you for what you are doing, but Jesus I pray that we begin to be a generation who won't back down from your call at the first sign of struggle and persecution, you took the ultimate punishment and what we endure is mere bee stings in comparism.

God give us a heart of Passion, a heart that serves. No matter what the cost.