Friday, May 25, 2007

Evolutionary Crisis

as i was sitting on the beach today before work enjoying the cool breeze and the very early sunset (grr i want daylight savings back!) cool sand underneath me, i gazed out to the ocean and began to get on those thoughts again, but this time it was more about the thought of how the world has existed for billions of years without change or disaster, that is until the introduction on the human mind, now i dont want to sound all negative and rant on about global warming and shit but i feel its a issue that does need to be addressed (as if it hasnt been addressed enough!).

i began to think about the ocean, the sheer vastness and solitude that it can bring, the intensity of how huge it is and all the life that goes on inside it, began thinking about whats behind the blue shimmering water, what its history is, whats its endured and how it effects us in todays society, began to think in the aspect of whats beneath the surface or between the lines so to speak. these thought rolled on for quite some time and then it hit me, as hard as the sunlight in the morning (im not a big morning person :P.)
the changes, the history, the events, the evolution that has occurred in the world that we live in, all lead up to this moment, they lead up to you sitting here in front of your computer screen, indulging yourself the endless realm of internet cyber space. being my blog.
20 years ago no one would have knew what the interenet is, sure they were on that road but you know what my point is,
50 years ago we as a society where recovering from the great economical struggle that WW2 put to us, ( the point in which USA managed a strong hold on the world)
70 years ago we were in a great depression
100 years ago we were in our first world war

my point is this.
in the last 500 years we as humans have changed the world so much, not for the advantages of the planet either, we spread like a virus using up all resources that are in that ares then continue to grow and spread around the world,most mammals in our world go around and live in an equilibrium with the enviroment, they take from it but give back just as much, the create an agreement so to speak with their surroundings and work with what they have being careful not to take too much in order for their resources to replenish. in the last 40-50 years we have polluted our planet so much to the point that it is now irreversible.
if we stopped all fossil fuel burning tommorow, the temperature of our atmosphere would continue to increase for another 50 years at least, the issue of global flooding is very real, the majority of our worlds large cities are located on coastal areas.
we as humans have a tendency to think for ourselves, no matter how much we believe we would take a bullet for a friend or go care for others before we care for ourselves, its simply not true. "every man for himself" that very term cannot fit more perfectly the way of human beings. think about it, when we go to buy a present for someone. the first thing we think about is what present can i get them that will make them appreciate me more. sure we think a lot about the meaning (i know i certainly do) but in the long run the effect we desire out of presents is recognition, the recognition of the thought of the present, the recognition of the fact that we have money to spare, the recognition that we remembered their birthday. any action we take in our lives we automatically think about how it wil benefit us, deny this as you may but it has been proven through trends,statictics and a heavy amount of research on us, human beings

to think that the world has turned to shit in the past 500-1000 years is mindboggling, our planet has existed for 100's of millions of years, so this amount of time is such a small fraction that its uncomprehendible to our minds what has gone on in past generations, whether it be the generations of last century of the generations of the last millenium. we started off with materials, resources that we saw fit to guide us in longer life and sruvival, these have turned to manipulative weapons of warfare, we are a generation fed on money, without we wouldnt survive, money is the new system that replaced the old bartering system because of people that didnt hold their end of the bargain. we invest millions of dollars nationally on our roads, a road is result of what we know as concrete or tar, a mixture of man made and natural resources that harden when dry. we drive on these roads with machines unheard of before the 1900's animals fear these machines they dont know what these beasts are invading on their territory. to me animals repersent the best source or path to our past life, the life of the hunter and gatherer, no one was fat back then, there were pratically no diseases and everyone lived for quite a long time. the look in animals eyes. not even that the very aura that animals give off as they watch cars driving along is disturbing to me, these machines have become our lives, the average wage of an american ceo jumped from 510,000 before 1995 to a whopping 36 million in 2005. the
greed for oil has driven us mad, it has brainwashed everything we know, has manipulated our very values in life, the need for oil because of our cars is disturbing. lets have a fun guessing game here.
(these figures are bound to be below the accurate ones.)
say on a daily basis one service station fills up 30 cars. each car holding 40 litres of petrol.
thats 1200 litres per day for this one service station. now say new zealand has around 150 service stations nationally.
150 times 1200 is 180000. thats 180 thousand litres of petrol a day, just in new zealand. so new zealand is very small country, lets say on average every country has 1000 service outlets and are all filling the same average daily.
with over 194 countries in the world (so lets round that to 200 for all those minority countries :)
thats going to be
200 times 1000 times 1200 litres of petrol
thats going to be 24,000,000 litres of petrol. every day!
times that by 365 days in a year and youve got
8,760,000,000
hmm so more than 8 billion seven hundred and sixty million litres of petrol a year cannot be a good thing, and that spells out addiction to me, were addicted to our fuel, it has become part of life. so i think it fair to say that it has become so normal for us to abuse our surrounding, taking everything and not giving back (substantially that is) its the sad reality that is upon us.
we are killing our planet, it quite simple really the sad fact for people my age is that by the time our parents are all retired, we will be responsible for trying to fix all this shit, and quite frankly that really gets at me at times.

now as my train of thoughts is rolling on in this rant of mine i have come back to the part about human suffering (it seems to be an easy subject to talk about)
why at funerals do we list off all the good qualities of the deceased? will that ease our pain in knowing that he/she did good while they could. if you were to ask me its comprimisation. i think that in a way we are only covering over our grief and sympathising ourselves because of the fact that they are gone and now and theres no turning back. im not at all saying that we shouldnt do this, because people influience our lives in so many ways, we wouldnt be able to comprehend the infinite ways people, your everyday people in the street, the ones you work with effect your life. however it seems to to itch at my thoughts the factor of human emotion.

i think that may be all for now.

just found a more accurate link in terms of petrol consumption
http://auto.howstuffworks.com/question417.htm

Friday, May 18, 2007

Pain And Growth

one addition to my book of thoughts is at a time when i had an infection on my rear end, laugh as you may but i didn't get sleep for 4 days and every time i sat down it gave me agonising pain. it was at that point that i wanted to talk about the aspect of human pain.
pain is without a doubt the most cruel and unforgiving feeling for the human race and like everything it can be divided in three,
emotional pain
physical pain
spiritual pain
my idea in this part of my rantings is to try establish a connection between the three and show how if one is unbalanced then it can theoretically effect all three.
physical pain is without a doubt the most common i don't think anyone in their right mind would argue that. muscle pains,broken bones,ripping tendons/arteries,pulling a muscle,headaches, the list goes on and on. i think its safe to say that no matter how wealthy,healthy or careful you are about being hurt you are guaranteed to feel a lot of physical pain in your life, as negative as this may sound it brings me to the point of sensory disabilities, it has recently occurred to me that there is disability for all our senses except one.
feeling.
this intrigues as i wonder what it would be like to feel nothing, you would not have any sense of walking,running,writing,typing,establishing what is tangible or not and the possibilities of how this can effect one being can go on and on, effectively the person would be living in a state or purgatory, not being able to identify reality from illusion, right from wrong, pain from pleasure. one would presume that if this case were to present itself one day in a being the person would die of... well confusion really?
personally i see the reason behind this lack of disability in our touching senses as a spiritual factor because whatever god we may believe in, that god does not see it benefiting us to go through life without feeling, we cannot truly enjoy the high points of our life's without remembering how much we have suffered in the past. in this particular case one would not have any sense of spirituality anyway because in order for things to appear real there must first be a greater persona in which created everything whether it be god,the force of the universe or simply the belief of any form of higher force acting upon us. in this case one would not be able identify the realm of physical pain, and therefore breaking the connection between the three.

spiritual pain.
it is often hard to identify and has that effect of "you don't realise till its too late".
spiritual pain is often related to a loss of direction of life and i tell you this from experience, so it may or may not be true for others (hey were all unique and different!) often someone in spiritual pain hopes to identify it as emotional and refuse to believe that they have a certain aspect in their life missing (being religion,simple beliefs about souls or ways of life eg Buddhism follows the way Buddha lead out his life then again that's the basis of most religions, idolising someone and trying to live out your life the way they did.) however i would like to point out that out of the three spiritual and emotional are probably the closest connected.
i would like to take one second to acknowledge the fact that if any of this relates to you then i am not saying there is something wrong with you, believe me everyone goes through these three types of pain in life and i think its safe to say you would be more sick if you didn't!

after this big paragraph of ranting i would like to ask you all,
why do we place ourselves in these situations to hurt? we subconsciously feel the need to hurt and hope to gain attention from it. i suppose it goes back to my example of the being living in a state of purgatory, if we did not place ourselves in these situations we would be worse of as a soul and as a being than if we avoided them, I'm not trying to say if your depressed then go on being depressed because that is ridiculous and i would never encourage that, I'm simply going back to my point that to enjoy the highs in life more we need to get through the hard parts.
through pain we grow in fact i believe (personally) that every action we take, every choice we make is one towards growth and towards us having a healthier soul.
when it gets down to it time heals everything, big and small, thick and thin, it heals it all some scars in our life may take longer to heal but it will come to a time where you realise "that experience isn't making me sad anymore" or "i think I'm over that experience, its not making me emotional." to add to this i would like to suggest to you all that you take time to and for yourself everyday whether it be half an hour at lunch break just sitting back and thinking about the "good Ole times" or 10-15 minutes while your lying in bed restless.

i have saved emotional for last because i personally believe it is the biggest chunk (although i shall try to keep it short... ish.) emotional pain can have a huge effect on ones life, and in a matter of minutes it can completely change your way of thinking as well as altering what you desire to get out of life, it is commonly known (not by me) that the pain of a true broken heart is worse than the majority of broken bones and/or any other physical pain. (this isn't certain for me so forgive me if that's incorrect) physical pain of a high degree is very exhausting and takes a lot out of you, it sometimes can cause a temporary depression as of the the fact that you are so limited when it occurs, you have to take time off work,school and it directly effects the social life you have be it interacting with workmates or catching up with friends. it can often make you feel emotionally detached from reality and/or society, in some cases you get attached to the feeling because you feel it for so long that you get used to it, it can make you feel detached as of the fact that you are isolated from society and/or reality. personally i try avoid using the term depression however sadly its the best word to describe the state of mind, i do this because i believe that you cannot diagnose someone for their feelings the whole idea of it is quite disgusting if you ask me, depression is often referred to as an illness and the for an illness to exist it automatically assumes that some people have it and some don't. i believe that everyone gets "depressed" to some extent in their lives whether they want to share/accept it or not. so an illness that occurs in everyone is not really an illness now is it?


( i don't see my following notes to be necessary)
so to conclude pain sucks, we all know about it and we all experience it, yet we all choose to put up with it because deep down we know that we will come out the other side a better person, and deep down we know the phrase "everything happens for a reason" and to some small extent we believe whether it be through evidence of experiences in our own lives or evidence that we see in our family or friends suffering.

all comments welcome!

Saturday, May 12, 2007

Not Achieved For NCEA

to start with many of you may have noticed that my blog title is Lucifer, this can commonly be mistaken in biblical terms as the angel that fell from heaven, the meaning of the word Lucifer is "light bringer" or "to bring light" etc. as a symbolic term to me possibly bringing light into your thoughts and opening new realms of possibility to you all.

As of the beginning of this year shortly after my trip to America in which i read a few theology books as well as a book my brother Sam gave me called "Zen and the art of motorcycle Maintenance." i began to write down those thoughts that everyone gets when they simply zone out and stare at one spot of something seemingly random, those thoughts that question our very existence on this earth and the way we go about living our lives. i would write in class and still get the work done funnily enough. so here's a thanks to Sam who has opened up this new way of thinking that i get myself into.
cheers ears ;)

one more note: this blog may seem like a lecture or me trying to tell you how to live your life or something but it is simply my thoughts i do not intend to say your way of living is incorrect, in fact most of these ideas i put out are ones i like to discuss so please
discuss!

so to start with converting my thoughts from paper to screen.
i was thinking in class (ironically enough) about our teaching systems and how science is taught.
these days tests are based on what lies in front of us, what we see to be tangible and therefore we as students are always going to be limited in the answer we give (in terms of getting it "right") in doing this the teachers/test moderator's subconsciously or maybe even purposely eliminate that x factor that we should be encouraged to bring out in school, that certain part of us that is imaginative and creative and always questions the question and all the realms of possibility that surround it (otherwise known as variables)

science to begin with focuses more on the material aspects that the human mind has knowledge about eg; air,gravity,forces,electronics.. so my question is how can we accurately answer or ask a question in "scientific" terms? for example; before newton was around who's to say gravity didn't exist before hand? we all know the logical answer is that gravity has always been around ever since the formation of our earth. so my next question is...
how many unknown "variables" potentially are out there waiting to be discovered? because of that variable that we are limited in knowing how many new variables are out there we can never really "accurately" answer a question.

to add to this there is a popular thesis amongst scientists that says there is an infinite number of theories with which to test an answer with, because of this one statement alone you could have not read my above paragraph at all and know that no answer in science is ever going to be correct. to end this part in my rantings i will just say that we have to deal with it, the world has already been trained to think scientifically and believe our scientists over any religion out there and personally its alarming to me that people would believe something a scientist says without even doing some background research.

i must add this point into the "educational studies".
why do teachers among our modern teaching systems prefer to teach classes that are "well behaved?" or constantly telling them to work in silence?
OK so sure its proven that most people can focus better with less noise but it intrigues me that they prefer a quiet class, is it something to do with the whole teacher student relationship that the teacher is "supposedly" in control of the class? is it the fact that the teacher has a set of guidelines to stick to and that when a student stumps a teacher (eg; asks a question on topic that he/she cant answer) they teacher feels vulnerable? personally i have seen many cases where teachers have given out detentions because the student has asked an intuitive question. personally i think this whole dilemma of teachers wanting control over their class come from hundreds of years of a society feed on the hunger fro power, be it physical, mental or just overall dominance of another person,race,object,class etc etc. but where does this hunger come from?why does man feel the need to have dominance or authority over one another? will this make us feel worthy, feel respect, or will it simply scratch our itch and give us a desire for even more power?
all through out our lives we will be striving to impress others, whether we can acknowledge this or not is out of the question, either way subconsciously every action we make is one to get us closer to having more money,respect or reputation. in the long term this leads me to think that we as a species have a hunger for that power play. eg; the massive power and authority of a government over a nation or the simple authority and respect that a father requires from his son. we are taught not to talk back to our elders or our teachers, what does this implie? personally i see it as an effort to eliminate the art of argument or discussion, of course there is a fine line between arguing and discussing. arguing is a means of which we stand for our opinion only we put this out to the other person and simply expect them to accept it and say that its right (which is why arguing causes so many problems between friends and family.)
discussing something is to take one another's opinions and see how it applies to the topic of conversation.
tell me out of all the things you have learnt over life how much of it has been from discussions and/or intellectual conversations?
by eliminating the talking back attribute of a child (which if i may add simply comes back at a later age) you are eliminating their imaginativ thoughts and leaving them thinking along the lines of right and wrong, many of us don't realise that beside yes and no there is one more answer.
mu. it is an ancient saying that means for one to Un ask the question. it implies that the question cannot be answered and/or that it is up for discussion.

teachers in a class often come to the conclusion that if you are looking at them then you are paying attention and they try to enforce this a lot, they think that is the student is looking elsewhere they are not listening. tell me does a blind man not hear what you are saying? does a deaf man not see your actions?

now i must come to the point that our schooling systems are biased.
all of us like to think that we don't support bias opinions but in saying that we are being biased by having a support against being biased. we are all biased to some degree and this is thanks to the ideas that are drilled into us as a child, as a teenager, as an adult, by our family, by our friends, by our culture, by our religion and by the simple way others dress in the street there really are infinite ways in which we are being brought up and raised to believe in one thing rather than another, the source of our opinions is practically from everything you encounter and because as individuals we all encounter different things throughout our lives we sometimes disagree with the support of one idea. eg; western civilisation sees cults and sacrificial rituals as wrong and inhumane however in many countries they have been doing it for thousands of years its simply part of life for them, the equivalent of wearing shoes for us.

well that is all on the topic of education it would be confusing if i started writing about human nature and human aspects at this time so ill leave it for a while.
please feel free to comment and discuss this because these are simply my thoughts and discussions over thoughts is the best way to learn!