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Well its been two months, seems my posts are becoming less regular.

Life just seems to rush us all by, its almost half way through the year, crazy. simply. crazy.

Well, i'm out of job, and have been for a month, its hard. really hard. since i was 15 i've been working, and to not have work for over a month is really hard. I, being a typical proud male, like to think i can look after myself and during this period have really had to lean on God, and he has taught me some hard lessons on my pride through this. I love my God, I love that he loves me, that He provides for me. He Provided me with $500 through this period through a good friend but basically told my freind not to give it to me until I asked her, and that. Was the lesson of pride. I absolutely hate asking for help from. Anyone. And that needed to change.

I can't get this thought of love off my mind. how do we truly know if we are in love? I believe its a personal judgement we have to make, we have to go with our heart, and our gut. And going into this thing, I can't see how anyone can do this without God. God gives guidance, thats all I can say. We cannot do these things on our own. I don't know how I could explain that to you if you are not a believer. I simply see it as fact.

Yesterday and all of saturday night, I was very sick. I do not know what it was, it was definitely not food poisoning. I didn't sleep at all Saturday, throwing up all night. And Sunday was throwing up most of what I ate except a few bits of toast. My stomach hurt a lot. And now. Strangely. I'm absolutely fine.

I can't help feel that God is trying to tell me something. My thought is of two things. And I lean to the one that speaks of me looking after my body. We are told that 'our body is the temple of God' and admittedly I don't look after my body. In reality i'm lucky I have not gained lots of weight.

Well I left this draft and got back to it as i was busy, last night at youth I spoke. And. Something. Was different, I personally believe I was on a whole other level that I haven't been to before. It was so unusual. I just felt.. Calm. At Peace. I can't describe it accurately with words. But yes. Youth was very good last night, very happy :)

Well I may indeed have a job now. Selling Sky TV, and I really look foward to it. I think I will really enjoy it and be challenged by it.

And.

My Funding application is in to the council now for New Years.

I'm really in an amazing space today, so many things have been stressing me, job, funding application, getting my message right for youth and just general everyday stuff. But. Now I feel so at peace.

I think that's about all I can say.

There's no deep thought or philosophy on my original thought tonight. Just.

Peace.